Now understanding step 1 as being a problem while in active addiction AND while sober I was finally able to seek out the proper solution to recover from the disease of addiction. A majority of our issue is in sobriety, not while actively using. The problem isn’t the first drink or drug, it’s the mental twist, the mental obsession that makes my thoughts not respond to reason and I have no defense against this until my thoughts are restored to sanity through the Twelve Steps and I have a complete psychic change. What is a mental obsession? A reoccurring or persistent thought that doesn’t respond to logic or reason. I always had all the ‘reasons’ in the world not to get drunk or high again but as stated above… the mental obsession does NOT respond to reason. I know I will lose everything, my family, my son, my job possibly even my life, but once I am in the mental obsession, I am defenseless & powerless against the first drink or drug. Lack of power is our dilemma. Down below it explains the disease model of addiction and alcoholism. It explains exactly what we as alcoholics and drug addicts suffer from. It breaks down the mental obsession (mind), the body (Allergy\\Phenonmenon of craving) and the spirit (restless, irritable and discontent) or R.I.D for short.